Posted at 04:53 0 comments (+) It's 4.15am.. I can't sleep. Been having insomnia since.. before 'A' levels.
And it doesn't help that my left ear is still hurting since last thursday.. It's really driving me crazy because i can't hear properly and it's painful. Sigh.

The reason why i suffer from insomnia is prolly the fact that i think too much. Like for example, what if i wasn't a vegetarian? what if i chose yuying secondary instead? what if i stop thinking so much and shut things out completely.. what if things were the same and what if.. we could change everything.

What if we didn't fall in love..Things wouldn't turn out this way.
You're one of the few who understands me. You understand me so well that you know things will not work out between us. I've already accepted it. But look at how things are now. We're.. not even talking much. Even though i've said "I'm just glad that i didn't lose you as a friend" back then, i know that i did.We used to talk about everything. I miss talking to you. Just sitting down, telling you about my day and laughing at random stuff. Been months since we last did that. You've lots of close friends, friends who went through a lot more with you and friends who probably understand better. Why would i.. even matter to you.

I've lost you.