Wednesday 23 April 2014
So Dark, I don't wanna head back there
Posted at 04:28
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I was hungry. At 2am.
"No. No food for you, Fatty" and started pinching my thighs absentmindedly. Fortunately, I stopped after realizing what I was doing.
Here's something I've never really told anyone. About a year ago when I was trying so hard to lose weight, I'd stand naked in front of a mirror, pinch my fats & criticize myself. Painful, but satisfying in a weird way.
"Don't say something to yourself that you wouldn't say to a friend"
Would I stop someone from eating when she's hungry? Would I love someone less because she would look better if she were to lose 10 pounds? Would I tell her that her thighs are humongous and she needs to do something about it cuz "they are obviously rubbing against each other" when she isn't even overweight?
No, I wouldn't.
Today is probably just one of those days I feel shitty about myself. From hating my body 24/7 to occasionally, I'm definitely getting there.
Signing off with a quote & a happy tummy,
Ame
